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Dear Bekah,

You are 1...

I still cannot wrap my mind around the idea that you have left babyhood and are full steam ahead on your toddler train...

You amaze me each day with all that you do and all the the things that you are learning. I wish sometimes that I could see things through your eyes... everything is new and interesting and also a little scary I am sure.

This past year has taught me so much about myself... so much about how I need to change my outlook on life and enjoy each moment because time goes so quickly. I need to cherish the time I have the of being your mom.

I can still remember the moment I met you... you had the most beautiful black hair and you looked exactly how I had pictured you would since the moment I found out we were having a girl. I remember your first night in the hospital, I remember how stubborn you were and how you didnt take a bottle from the nurses - you wanted the real stuff. I remember lying in that hospital bed trying to wrap my mind around the fact that I was YOUR mom... I still dont think that I fully comprehend it...

You had the sweetest face and I sware we kissed you more than a million times that first day of your life. You daddly also got in a couple of hundred thousand kisses.

And as we celebrated your first birthday on Saturday - I held back tears as I feel you have grown too fast, I feel like I am not remembering enough and taking it all in enough. Those tears were also of joy as I remember that the LORD was so good to me when He blessed me with you, my precious gift.

I pray that you will know how loved and cherished you are by me and your daddy! I pray that we will raise you to know and love the LORD and that one day you will give your life to him...

But for now I pray that I will be the mom that you deserve. I pray that I will be patient with you and that I will love and adore you and spoil you and give you more kisses and hugs than you know what to do with. I pray that you will be happy and KNOW that you are loved!

Because the happiness that you have brought us needs to be reciprocated...

Thank you so much for filling our lives with more happiness and joy than we deserve, thank you for loving your daddy so much that you get so excited when you see him and give him the shyest smile ever, because he is your sweetheart. Thank you for the big smiles you give when you see me, thank you for sometimes wanting me and no one else, thank you for teaching me to love, cherish and appreciate my own mommy, thank you for teaching me so much in your 1 year of life so far... Thank you for being YOU my princess, my sweetpea, my angel, my Bekah...

I cant wait to experience, God willing, the next year of your life and all that you will continue to teach us.

I love you my baby girl!




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Birthdays

Tomorrow isBekah's 1st Birthday and I feel like crying... (is that normal...am i normal...) it is not a bad sad just a "Im going to miss the baby phase" sad...

I feel like my little angel girl is growing up so fast and I dont want to miss anything. I feel like I am not remembering her and her little quirks enough? I feel sometimes like I am not being the best mom, the mom that she deserves...

However together with feeling of sadness come feelings of great joy and excitement and I realise that I have been a mom for a year and have raised Rebekah to be healthy and happy so far. I realise that she is entering the toddler phase of her life and she is going to have so much fun learning so many new things and that is going to bring me happiness!

Life needs to be lived always believing that the cup is half full and not half empty :)